School started this week. Oh man was I looking forward to this week. All summer I lamented the days that were kid-centered: I needed to get to work on this business! I was so ready for this back-to-school week I could taste it, but the first day I was alone and had to go to my new job as an entrepreneur, I FELT LIKE JUNK and just floundered about, making this, drawing that, listing out this, dreaming about that, getting mad at myself for being scared and beating myself up for making bad work.
Good grief. It's like the Universe was telling me, "Duh. What else do you expect when you start things during Mercury Retrograde". OR "Get real lady".
Blerg. Grumpy mama bear was the result of that day and I just felt so defeated.
But then, I sunk my woes into a hot + beautiful bubble bath and remembered:
a) beating yourself up has less-than-positive results on productivity
b) Redo, reassess, redesign...anything to do with reexamining things. This is the theme of Mercury Retrograde and whether you believe in the woo-woo hullaballoo that is astrology, you gotta admit, these kinda days are hard rivers to slog through...especially when you walk against the current so it's best to look at what ya have and what you've already done and GO FORWARD FROM THERE
c) you can't force the river...or so they say; in other words: go with the frickin' flow, yo
So, to summarize: I need to go easy on myself a bit about getting this business in the air. I want it so bad. BAD. As in I think about it about 95% of the time. I've got BIG DREAMS and I know they're good ones. I know the world needs the kinda mojo that only I can bring to the table but let's be honest, some days are easier than others. I have already done so much to get to where I am and when I woke up today and looked at the work I was making yesterday--the stuff I was gettin' all indignant about--I spun the perspective around and it's good, y'all. It's so so good.
Yup, this grumpy mama bear just needed to remind herself that she's doing JUST FINE and to keep sliding along ONE STEP ATTA TIME.
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